2009年6月12日星期五

写在期末1

期末又到了
两年时间为什么过的那么快呢
彷佛只是一瞬间
我从未如此快乐

心像一只飞出笼子的鸟
虽然迷茫不知天空的边际
但懵懵懂懂
何尝不是一种快乐

09年6月13日凌晨1点26分
百无聊赖的敲着键盘
本打算温习白天抄写的单词
计划又一次落空
可不是嘛,计划赶不上变化
这是谎言

下周四场考试
我感觉自己正在成仙的路上
与正常时差相差6个小时
每天只吃两顿饭(其中一顿是一个堡加翅)

注意力不集中
...
我明天一定去图书馆
那是个好地方

甲鱼剪了个头
很神奇...
我终于明白我当初剪半寸的时候大家为何反应过度了
旁观者果然清

明天继续复习
tmd 普特上怎么那么多听力强的人呢
我明天一定继续!fcuk!
日语 语概 Pro Wong 证件照 论文 借笔记...

little bit love little bit love little bit love little bit love little bit love little bit love little bit love ......
this is the way you left me, i'm not pretending, no hope, no happy, no golory
this is the way you love me, like it's forever...
哇,我听英文歌练听力。。。
睡了


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亲爱的们,千万别以为这是一片水文,我还会回来编辑的...hzz你他妈就这有强迫症..

2009年5月6日星期三

生日



出生在90年代成为被人咋舌的事实发生在我来到大学以后,每每别人问我几几年的,我便支支吾吾,仿佛自己出生在90年是件不可饶恕的罪似的,不仅和我一届的peers中鲜有90年的,甚至是下一届的学弟学妹在我所认识的人里也没有比我小的。谁让90后被贴上了脑残的标签呢,呵呵,这些都是笑谈。事实上,我并不为自己是90年而感到难堪甚至于难过,倒是有那么一点特殊感,既不优越也不自卑,只是每次想到自己身边的人普遍都老一到两岁,而自己小小年纪就和他们一样的事情,不免小小地得意一下,呵呵,套用李同学的一句话“年轻有为”哈哈。


生日已经过去了21天,已经21天了,今天才重新动笔来完成这篇博文,不是因为很闲没有事做(其实这是一个原因,或者说我不想做其他的事),而是不想这个博客里有滥竽充数的文章,我答应自己要好好经营这个地方的;另外,我今天突然想起妈妈了:)

我的生日是阴历3月20,阳历4月15.其实我妈她也不是很确定,我每次问她的时候她都会很困惑的看外婆一眼,再问一句“muma,是的吧?”(muma是我的家乡话,“妈妈”的昵称),外婆会很斩钉截铁的果断的说是的是的。于是,今年我生日的前几天,正当老妈打电话过来问我打算怎么过生日我回她随便过的时候,她说:今年的生日很不一样,阴历和阳历重合在一天,还是好好过吧,19年才一次呢。我总算确定我的生日是这天了。


每年的生日都有过,家里虽然也不是特别阔,但爸妈每年都不会忘记,在我和爸妈生活在一起后,每年都会烧一桌子菜,把外婆接到家里来,欢欢喜喜地吃上一顿,蛋糕倒不是必不可少,可妈妈烧的菜,呵呵,虽说每年都是那几样,不外乎青椒肉丝,鸡毛菜,凉拌豆皮/海蜇丝,藕汤/排骨海带汤/猪肝汤,还有...反正就是很普通的那几样吧,虽然没有餐馆里的大厨做的菜那样刺激味觉(这点我妈是极力不赞成的,因为他觉得餐馆里的菜调味料放的太多不利于健康),但是很可口,基本属于好吃又不口干型。我妈不是很乐意去钻研厨艺的人,如果是自己一个人她是绝不会想着发明一道菜的,但如果是别人跟她说要教她做某道菜或者帮她做,她就很会很来劲,并且随着我的年龄越来越大,老妈在这方面越做越好,呵呵,不知道是不是我经常嘲笑她做菜不精的原因。本来不怎么想吃东西的,敲着那几个菜名,突然想吃妈妈做的菜了。

说道生日礼物不得不提,我的大多数礼物都来自朋友同学,打小人缘还不错吧,礼物也每次都有几份,爸妈有时给钱有时会达成我的愿望(当然都是很没志向的愿望,比如像买新衣服什么之类的),亲戚们有时候会给我点零用钱,回想起这点,还是很怀念的。

今年的生日是19岁生日,没有像18岁那样请宿舍吃饭,只是和两个好朋友一起去小聚了下,谈谈天说说地,很是惬意。今年的礼物也很简单,其实当别人知道你的生日时往往会问你,想要什么礼物啊。今年我选择了书,送我一本书吧,你喜欢的就行。

小蔡送我,希腊精神
小顾送我,纸房子
Ben送我,亲爱的,要短句
还有Lucas的蛋糕,真好吃,可惜我放的时候貌似长了点,那个草莓好像坏了。
礼物虽然不贵重,但对我来说确实无价之宝,但绝对是一个难忘的生日。

2009年4月30日星期四

写在四月底

    从开学忙到今天,总算有几天可以闲下心来,做做自己想做的事,抑或什么都不做,只是呆呆的坐在电脑前发呆。我并不会像很多人一样奢望在闲下来的日子里能思考自己过去一段时间里的对于错,因为我发现与其花那么多时间去思考孰是孰非,还不如先去做一做,你都没经历过,或者说你都没有足够的经历,怎么就知道这样或那样是对的呢,或者说你怎么就能肯定若干年后你回忆起今天你认为做的很对的一件事你不会觉得后悔?世界在变,人也在变,所以最好的办法,还是那四个字:顺其自然:)烦恼自然而然就少了。
    五一三天假加上五四青年节的半天,一共三天半,怨念的是三号下午要高口考试,那么二号和三号肯定废了,剩下五月一号,好好玩吧..

2009年4月14日星期二

生日的意义

留个位置,明天再写。

2本书+一盒蛋糕=happy
本来以为人家给忘了,没想到人家记着呢..开心啊!

2009年4月3日星期五

呱呱坠地的婴童,一步一步,他走在死亡的路上。不管快乐或是悲伤,每过一天,他离死亡也便近一天,直到那么一天,自然抑或意外地,他倒下了,呼吸停止,血液凝滞,身体开始僵硬,亲人们哭泣着,双手合十,送他一路走好,终于他踏上了下一段路程。

死似乎是人们一直急于逃避的话题,其实又有什么呢,人本来只是世俗中的一种,死亡是既定的,或早或晚,结局是一定的,若能处之坦然的看待死亡,我觉得,人生也接近完满了。

我把自己想象成刚刚咽下最后一口气的死者。安静的躺在床上,我的爱人坐在床边,我的孩子们围在我周围哭泣着,我的朋友们也来了,他们唏嘘着,这人一辈子老老实实本本分分,怎么今天早上不小心摔了一跤就走了呢,这时候他们大概也想了想自己,说不定哪天...老朋友,马上咱们就得再见咯。孩子们依个来见我最后一面,他们亲吻我的额头,热热的泪滴在我冰凉的脸上。最小的孩子还不懂事,她只是很好奇的望着,另外几个小孩子也不太懂事居然笑了起来,这么温馨的画面,真希望时间就此定格。

中国人在死这事上可没少花心思,我这里说的花心思,不是说死亡祭奠仪式种类多么繁多程序如何复杂,只是单单觉得,中国人在死上境界特别高。

中国人有红白喜事,不管娶人死人,都是喜事。人活着该热闹,人走了也得风风光光。死,并不简简单单是生命的终结,这象征这一段旅途的完结(请原谅我又很俗气的将生命比作旅程,谁让千千万万文人都这么说呢,事实上也的确是这样),这是一季电视剧的大结局,这是交响乐演奏完毕后的鸣掌。死之于中国人,不啻是有里程碑的意义。不管是你是王孙贵族或是平民百姓,咽下最后一口气,人们合上你的棺材盖子,乱说一通,然后你就有盖棺定论了,人生就此完整了,赶快真是投胎找个好人家吧。

五四运动和十年浩劫几乎将中国人骨子里存着的东西全部毁完了,人们不再对鬼神保佑敬仰,不再相信神明的力量,一时间我们失去了信仰。我觉得这很可悲,人们一面告诉自己死亡是自然规律的表现,一面又不能接受人就这样死掉了,总希望他能在,不是那一坛轻轻的骨灰,而是希望他的灵,能够在这个世界,或是另一个世界存在,光是存在还不行,我们还希望他们过得好。我自己也常常不能接受,为什么人就这样走了呢,他的心脏停止跳动之后,世界上的另一个世界,会不会多了另一颗会跳的心呢。小时候总是沉浸在无忧无虑中,如果说没有欢乐陪伴估计也有同伴的鬼故事把自己吓的半死,长大后整日都忙着学习考个好大学,也没有时间想这样的问题,我死之后会到哪里去呢,各种分词从句公式定律席卷而来,我思考的不会是那个。到了大学,真正闲的时间其实并没有多多少(虽然大学对于高中无疑是一个飞跃),但随着年岁的增加,事情越看越清,反而喜欢思考这样的问题起来。死亡并没什么,只是现在不像孩童那般无虑,不似中学生那样忙碌懵懂,对于死亡的期待多了一些,我希望我能风光大葬,死后能有人常常回忆我,我并不是想当名流千古的大人物,只是希望那些我爱的人,他们能够常常想起我。至于我自己,死以后不希望立刻投胎,能呆在亲人身边一段时间是最好,然后确认他们没事以后,我便可以安静的离开了,开始我世界各地的行走。


2009年3月24日星期二

朋友

今天算是我过得很开心的一天了,特此记下一笔。

很久没有思考过为什么自己不开心,也没有人真正问过我,就这么浑浑噩噩的过着。大学就是这样子,没有真正意义上的好朋友,大家心里都打着各自的小算盘,出于原因种种,不管是可告人的,不可告人,人与人之间似乎都隔着一层,留着一手。就算真正关系不错,别人问起,也只会淡淡得说,和这人关系不错,甚至吝惜"好友"这样的字眼,这年头,keep a lowprofile貌似很得人心。

特别庆幸遇到小顾这样的朋友,不仅兴趣相投,而且相处容易,基本上到了无话不说的地步。这样的朋友,在他面前能说出自己实际的想法,是多么开心的一件事。你的生活,你的想法,你的好与坏,不再是单调的一面,不再是你想在其他一些人面前想表现出的一面,而是你的全部,整个人霎时变得立体了,无论对于自己还是他,有这样一个朋友,能推心置腹,任何适合想起来都觉得暖意融融,仿佛冬天里的一杯奶茶。

早上如果晚起,他会等你,即使是两个人都会迟到,如果不想去了,可以让他帮着把作业也交了;开心的时候一起去吃大餐,不开心的时候一边吃大餐一遍聊不爽的事;有困难他会帮你,有喜悦能为你开心;对你坦诚相待,你能够认识他的朋友,人以群分,他的朋友必定也像他一样,可以放心交往,又省去了择友的麻烦...

言多必有失,我也得keep a lowprofile,要不然连我自己都觉得好像占小顾便宜了,呵呵。

来上海已经两年,晚上一直睡不好,下午拉着小顾去健身房挥汗半个小时,消耗掉了多余的精神,待会去洗个热水澡再喝杯牛奶,我就不信我今晚睡不好,呵呵。

也希望小顾sleep tight(不过这家伙似乎每天晚上都睡得挺香,anyway,再次像小顾表示感谢,it's a treasure to have a friend like you)

2009年3月21日星期六

My Saturday

无聊到想死
2:30am 在看完一部恶心的片子之后...睡觉
5:00am 做梦中,做梦中,做梦中
10:oo 闹钟响,改起床啦,按掉继续睡,未能战胜自己
10:05闹钟再响,果断地按掉
10:10被小蔡吵醒,催我交稿...
10:15起床,刷牙,洗脸
10:30收到责编大人的稿件,开始编辑,一边啃昨晚上买的锅巴,味道不错
2:30pm 总算搞定
2:40开始与人侃大山,各种侃,骂与被骂..哎,大学生的日子真不好过
3:00去楼下解决午饭,为什么那么贵..
3;30继续侃,上网..
5:00取钱吃晚饭
6:00上校内猫扑时光...
7:33无聊的编辑着blogger
...
多美好的一天啊,又被我浪费了..
我明天一定得早起,mlgb的。

2009年2月20日星期五

Lost in Beijing.

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The End

2009年2月19日星期四

读书有感>>>1

Mr Darcy Takes a Wife
by Linda Berdoll
[i]
Review by Hu Zhongzhou


I've never been to the plain district of England. But the novelist Linda Berdoll made me feel as if I had been there, that genial and moist spring morning of the 18th century, when Elizabeth woke up but found it was not in her own small room and the man beside her was not her dear sister Jane but her Mr. Darcy for the 1st time in her life. The story of Mr and Mrs Darcy's marriage life was narrated by the author, who made an issue of their exciting marriage life after the wedding instead of the sentimental process of falling head over heels in love with each other.

Elizabeth is the reason why I love this book. Her lively, independent, brave or even bold character never fails to attract me. Lizzy, as the heroine of the story has such a pair of clear and delicate eyes, which not only makes me see what she sees, but also feel what she feels. There are so many skeletons in Pemberley's closet. Lizzy will tell you everything.

A woman died sadly owing to a murder in her shabby rent. Rumors about her affairs with Mr. Darcy, who was the junior master of Pemberley where the woman has worked flies faster than birds. If they were true, doesn't it just probably mean that the child she left is Mr. Darcy's? The kid ran to Pemberley and accidentally became a stable boy there. Lizzy started to recognize the similarities between her husband and the kid. The mystery of the birth of the kid is only one of the reasons you want to keep turning the pages to find out what happens in this book.

Lydia and her unfaithful husband Wickham are still causing problems for the newly married couple. Even Elizabeth can't tolerate Lydia, who is as vulgar as before, she can't do nothing. Lydia envies her sister for her happy marriage and wealth so much that she tires all ways to break it. Wickham even tries to seduce Lizzy. The knight, who is a brother and a good friend of Darcy feels a crush for Lizzy, too. Not only the daughters and their husbands have complex affairs, even Mrs. Bannet came across a fake duke who claims to love her. The weather in Britain's winter is so terrible that a storm get all the related people stuck in Pemberley for 3 days, the end of which also marks the end of Mr. Darcy takes a wife.

The theme of the book is happy and exciting marriage life. To most Pride and Prejudice junkies it's a little bit intolerant. Some readers say that Elizabeth is more a lechery mistress than an elegant lady, while Mr. Darcy acts more like a macho man found of woman than a proud gentleman. Yes, I have to say, the most brilliant and shining point of the book is that it's different from the original work, no matter in terms of theme, plots, main character and tone,etc. Actually, though the background of the book is set in England during the end of the 18th century, you can smell the sense of the U.S.A continuously. Look at this line from the book: This is almost the 1st time, as she can recall, that the day has ended without their sex. Sounds familiar? This is extremely like the scene in Sex and City when Kelly leans against the Mr. Big and says: “This is the first time. We sleep together but we don't have sex.” Being American and modern isn't a fault, yet the author is still the target of people saying it's totally nonsense.

Jane Austen, born as a daughter of the priest, led a cordial and peaceful life. And she is a 18th century lady who has never been married and accordingly never taste the passion of marriage life. Surely she can write such natural and pure work focused on innocent love like Pride and Prejudice and ignore the annoying problems like doubts, distrust, quarrellings,etc. that marriage life might encounter. People has been enjoying her work since it came out. But truth is that at the age of Jane Austen, books like Pride and Prejudice were against the main stream. Now people say it's classic because of its fresh and bright style with almost no hardcore description. I did do searching work and surprisingly found that even Jane Austen was criticized for her work being too obscure and lacking ups and downs by some critics or writers like Charlotte Bronte. Since then, why can't we just take this sequel as an innovative work. It might become another classic. And just because it's a 21st century work and based on the American ideology, I find it closer to the real world and more helpful.

If being modern and American is the 1st reason I love this book, then the 2nd reason must be that it's more than a romantic story, which exactly what the original work is. Sometimes you find it's a love story, sometimes you feel it's a detective fiction, and owing to the introduce of the War of Napoleon, sometimes you may mistake it as a historical work. Provided with more diversified characters and multi-stream clues, readers can appreciate the work from different level and angle. Conflict between love and extraction disparity is no longer the main emphasis of the work, but one of the tiny episodes of the book.
It's not the best book I have ever read, but one of the nice books I enjoy all the time. With half classic British half modern American style and exciting content, Mr. Darcy Takes a Wife will definitely surprise you.


[i] Linda Berdoll is a self-described Texas farm wife whose underground smash-hit Mr. Darcy Takes a Wife and the follow-up, Darcy & Elizabeth have over 250,000 copies in print and still counting. She lives on her pecan farm in Texas, with her husband.